(Delay post 8-6-2007)

I’m back in KL and last night, I just had the worst night of my life. These few days in Taiping make me realise meng wee is the only one I’m still thinking and care about. Apparently I’m still waiting for him. Then I decided to say no to that guy. He brought me to a park last night and I told him I don’t like to have a relationship yet again now. Okey… Then fine. We chatted there quiet long though, the surrounding was suppose to be romance me out, but I was too caught up with the reality, cause I hasn’t stop thinking meng wee yet. Everything felt so wrong. Then worse comes, the stupid jerk just have to make everything turn ugly. He started to hold my hand, the hug me on the waist, then start kissing my face and my neck. I was trying to turn him down then he keep saying sorry. WTH… After that I tried to keep like distance from him, and then he just pulled me over and kissed me. I really feel like slapping him, so many times until his face turn green. Not something to be happy about. I got so insulted and I pushed him away then I just went back. He really pissed me off, I though he would show some maturity but turn out he is just a stupid brainless jerk. He said he wouldn’t wanna lose me. Now see. I’m feeling so dirty now like I’m some sort of slut. I can just slap myself seeing myself in the mirror. WTH… I’m not a small kid anymore. What had I got myself into.