Will it forever be like this

I'm crying since one hour ago. I called my ex just awhile ago, told him what had happen. When we broke up, I said when I got bullied by anyone he'll wack the person for me. Actually what I meant that time was wanted him to care, but turn out he just said 'suan la'. I didn't know he wants to know about me or not, but he never ask about me. This hurts more then getting molested by someone. For the 1st since long long time ago, I actually thought of giving up. I've tried so many things to make myself better, but non of them seems working. I work my soul out, cry, drink, run away. I'm so so tired of trying. The angel and demon thing beside me, for now I think choosing the demon idea might be the easiest way to get out. When broke up I promised not to do stupid things, but he broke his promises, why not me. It's so stupid, but its stupid or hurt.
My friend li theen told me
'hey... i don't know how i can help you. all i can say is, don't give up yourself. i know it is hard to forget, i know the harm that is caused can last very long... but don't give up. there are still other people out there. maybe, all you can do is to let things proceed naturally. don't focus on "forgetting" or "not caring", as those might bring a counter-effect... just let things go naturally, if you feel sad, cry your heart out...
hings like this happen in life... i'm sure there are tougher things to come... stay strong. maybe you're feeling unloved, but at least, you still have your friends around you. i don't know what else to say... i'll pray for you...'
I hope the prayer will be answered, cause mine hasn't be answered yet. I want the pain to go away. Just go away.