This post is kinda long winded so please bear with me. I have been working in the kindergarten lately. I was a kindergarten teacher before because I love kids a lot. I guess it is a natural thing for me to teach. I have 3 younger sister which I basically took care of them when they were young. I helped my mom to baby sit my sisters while she did all the cooking and cleaning. I remember teaching baby sisters to sing ABC and write their names when they haven't even got into the kindergarten. I also remember playing cutting hair with my 3rd sister Wan Cheng in my room and end up sticking all her hair back with plasters because we didn't want our mom to scold us. I enjoy being with kids. After so many years, I still have the feeling of being a big sister when I'm with kids. I wasn't a best child last time and certainly not the best teacher now. I can be naughty as them at times. But thankfully all my students turned out to be good and most importantly they had their best time during their childhood. My ex-students are doing well in their primary school now. Hmm.. miss them a lot.
Working in this kindergarten however is not as happy as before. I felt that I have been under-appreciated. The centre head of the kindergarten even gave me comment such as 'You don't look like a teacher who has 5 years experience to me...'. For her, she said she had done researches and been through many training and stuff hence she doesn't think that I am good enough to teach. She said my way of teaching is forcing the child and that will stress the child psychologically. I do not agree of some method that they are using to educate the children like setting limits for the children and not being able to see the children's talent. All I did was just letting the children try what they like to do. I hate seeing them being ordered to do things and no question should be asked. I on the other hand like them to question. Teach them to ask 'why' for the things that they do not know or do not like. It might look as though as it is an act of rebellious but to me it is a sign of liberty. My thinking is the children will listen to you if you are able to give them a reason to do so. Not by force or authority.
I hate going to work for the first two weeks because of this. I am asked to just shut-up and listen. But as usual, do I look like a person who give a damn? Even me as a teacher hate to go to school, imagine what the children is feeling. Until this week, the children starts to get closer to me and start telling me their thoughts. They really like me being there. Telling them things about life by sharing my experience with them. I was touched when I heard a child told me she wants to be like to when she grow up. I feel so sorry for them because I will be leaving soon. Still thinking ways to break the news to them. The only thing that is keeping me there is my kids. I really hope I made a difference during this short month.
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4 comments:
Oww.. I'm glad u found meaning in ur job.. When i worked in the kindergarten last time, i think it was a hard time for me and also the kids I taught. So for the sake of my mental health and the kids' childhood, I decided to quit it.
Different ppl have different way of looking at things. Just listen to wat she has to say. In the end, she can see the result for herself.
Nah... you won't understand. I kinda think that her action is more personal than work. The difference I've made might not even mean a thing to her.
The difference u've made doesn't need to mean anything to her. If she's that closed minded and fixed minded to see things as it is, then i think it's not worth it for you to do anything to get her acknowledgement.
You have to rise above all these emotions to be a good teacher. Kids at kindergarten age are emotional, Head teacher is egoistic. If you just see the fact and be calm, stick to your guns, you will be a bit happier. Like Cheng said, you don't always need acknowledgement if you are sure that you are doing the right thing. Hope you enjoy the rest of your time at the kindergarten.
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