Who can I talk to?

It's almost 2 months since the break up. I has been trying my best to stand up by myself again. I'm still crying most of the nights, just because I thought the time will comes by itself. I realize I has let go of him quite a lot, but still so very sure I love him. Till when this love will fades? I don't use that word 'love' anymore actually, but I cant find another word to explain why I'm still doing everything wanting to make him happy. Everyday I have to control my impulses to call him or to cry to him or to tell him how I feel. I know those are not the things he wants to hear. Theorically I know what to do. Everyone knows what to do, is just that can everyone do it. The reality not that easy. Sometimes you would think get drunk and bang the head on the wall is the wisest thing to do on that time, or keep telling yourself crying is okay. I got someone asking me out. I am just not ready. Not with my heart still bleeding. I just want to do something to show myself it is time to move on. Honestly, I am still waiting a day he'd say he regreted it. Yea.. Just like in my dream. But dream will just stay as dream. One day, he will move on and I hurt like hell, just hope before I have to face that, I have to kill my love for him. That time my heart will be strong enough to take it.