Not believing in it

Someone gave me some encouragement. Simply by lending a shoulder and a pair of ears. From him, I could steal some feelings of my ex once again. His massage and lending the shoulder gave me a few moments back of my memory. We are not couple, just friends. Might be unfair for him but I do not want us to go futher for sure, cause it could be hard to be friends again if anything more happens. Somehow I have lost all my courage for doing anything for love. I was once, brave to do everything for love, just like in the movie, and I thought love would pay it of, love is all we need, but sadly it's not as beautiful. Moreover, there's no love. At least now I found a little of myself, if this is the last day of my life, I have done my best for the day and I have no regrets. I have no idea what am I saying now, perhapes this madness will end tomorrow morning. I'm looking forward for the sunrise again.