My world sank and rise

Yesterday my hubby and me went for a movie to celebrate my last day of college. It was an emotional roller-coaster yesterday. He was telling me to take care of myself when he's not here for me if anything happens. Then he told me he had lung ache lately, and he thought his body had gone wrong somewhere due to his heavy smoking habit in the past. Although he has quited completely now, the damage cannot be undo. I was weeping almost the whole day after listening to him saying that thinking of the worst resort possible that will happen. Probably I am still very selfish that I do not want another heartbreak after all the planning and dreams we had. I prayed to God, asking if we are meant to be why would he wanna break us up again. If there's a past life, I can't bear to think of the days without him, talking and laughing to me.

He went for a check up just now. Now found out he's only dehydrated and too tired. O well, seems like all the worries are just waste of time and tears. I was thinking to push earlier our marriage before anything happens between 2 of us. Silly me. Anyway, thank God for answering my prayers. I'll treasure all the time I have with him, and with anyone around me. I guess this also makes me realise that I actually love him more than I thought. I really hope our plan can work. We'll get married and have kids, with our pets around us till we get old. Just simple and ordinary is all I ask for.