Old friends

It is all still very new for me, I mean the college live. I've been trying my best to pay attention on my studies and readings, mostly I'm in control, but the whole experience just seems like draining of my energy. Everyone keep telling us to read more and read the most. Nowadays, I barely have time to even get enough of rest. I though college life should be about partying and dating and all. Well.. no doubt that this is what I wanted, to have something to concentrate on, but I'd like some partying once in awhile. Merely study just make my life so dull. Seems like I don't have the mood to enjoy fun time anymore, or not enough energy to do those. Taylors makes people wanna study hard, but I just not yet feel a sense of belonging there yet. Probably I just need more time to get use to it, I hope it does soon. I'd bumped in to some of my old schoolmates today. I'm glad I finally found someone who actually knew me and I found myself acting like the old me again, just for that moment. I went for ice skating today just to take sometime relaxing myself. Just like usually, I got myself cuts and bruises everywhere, but it was pretty rewarding. I get to take my own sweet escape, and for a bonus, I even know an oversea friend from Hong Kong there today. Aww... so not like me talking, I actually liked to be alone now more then being in a group? So not me now. I'm actually having some gossip problem there.. so fast.. since I'm only on my 2nd week there. I really hate that cause it really isn't true at all. Makes me feel like secondary school again. So childist I would say. Who likes who likes who bla bla bla... Who cares? Besides, who need those? So childish for all those nonsense. Don't 'you' have better things to do then making up stories for others? Anyway I'm too tired to worry about that issue. I've just gone through the messages I still kept in my handphone from my ex. Apparently they don't hurt that much anymore after reading them. But I guess it's true what he said last time, that time before really did make me a stronger person. I'm hanging on for everything and started believe in faith and what I can do most for myself just because I've fallen before. Without that time, I think I'll still be the naive immature girl that I was before. Just that sometimes I feel like I've lost the old me, maybe it's still me, but a grown up one.