I messed up my life

Life has been hectic for the week. Assignments due is near and I'm suddenly getting all emotional once again. I don't get it. PMS should be over now. Is it my problem or what? People at home seems to picking fight out of everything. Why only hurtful words can be used to communicate? To add spices in life? I'm fed up with all the arguing and heart pumping conversation. Sometimes I just wish to hide in a space entirely empty and cry my heart out. I'm not okay. Tomorrow is 28th Aug. Used to be my anniversary with my ex. All these time I've been trying so hard to move on and I really thought I did, but flashbacks attack me like hell. If not because of assignments, I guess I'll be grieving alone in the bathroom again. Now I know why I've been so upset since my plan of moving out got crash. I really need to be alone. Just one person. I thank God for the happy family I have, but just sometimes I wanna be just alone. Moreover I've been expecting independent life away from home for long. Pressure level is definitely up, it's good to know someone is around to catch me if I ever fall. Stop me if you think I'm crazy. I wanna stop being friend to him. I'm literately forcing myself into it and the other side seems pushing me out. I'm too tired. It's hurting too much.I wanna delete his phone number, his msn, his everything. I wanna burn his pictures, dump his ring into the sea, and forget him forever.