Cold weather

I heard the university result will be out next mid week. I'm still so into my job and not sure will I able to adjust back to the study mode again. Too early to think about it. I think if the problem occur also, it'll finally be sloved automatically. Everything seems happy today. I went to the kindergarten, spent my whole morning taking care of Le Le and Jin Lin (2 babies in my kindergarten). Wouldn't be happier. After work I just went home and had a really long and deep sleep. I was having dizziness since last night. When ever I try to turn my head or lie down or stand up, the whole room seems to spin. At least after the sleep the dizziness doesn't comes that often anymore. It started to rain since afternoon. Actually the weather was like that for the past few days. It just make everyone getting more sentimental, or even emotional. When I woke up this evening, I was covered by my comfy blankie and hugging my big booster. I felt really cozy like a baby sleeping in mom's arms. I am holding babies to sleep everyday and hugging them when they cry, I actually need someone to hold me for sometime. I wanna cry if I can but now I no longer can cry. All I felt was a cold shiver rushing through my bones. How I wish I wake up with the hands of the one I love around me but my blanket. I might be leaving KL if I get an uni offer for the course I want, I just have to get myself ready. I know I have to leave everything here and never bring anything with me, but honestly, I feel it too hard to let go still.