Confession.. too fast

I'd got a confession last night. It was expected. From the guy I have been dating. I really miss the feeling of having someone to care for me and protect me and lend me a shoulder when I need it. He can give me that. I don't know how long can this last, but I don't want this to last long. He is clearly not the person i'm looking for. Just the time was right for everything, if I'm not carefull I could have already said yes. I don't want a guy who keeps someone else in their heart other then me if with me. He can't. Dating is okey, but I'm not ready to give anyone anything yet. I'm so scare of getting hurt again. Moreover, it's not fair for the person committed to me and I'm still thinking of another person. I called my ex last night, just heard his voice for few seconds. He's having exams, pretty busy it seems. I miss him. Really. I still wish he could regret and ask for me again. It won't happen I know. I'm feeling so guilty, I'm crying for a guy but I look for another guy to cry to. Sounds so slutty. Finally this weekend I will go away back to my mom's hometown and I wanted to stay there alone a little bit longer. Just to relex and get away from everything.