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Fairwell 2010 ~ Welcome 2011

2010-12-31T10:51:00.002+08:00

Just like every end of year in the history, people set a list of things they expect in the coming year, a new year's resolution to be more precise. So here's my list for 2011:

1. Get in shape physically and mentally (I make this the top of my list every year)
2. Get my TOEFL done by February
3. Enroll into a MBA course
4. Be a strategic planner in a global agency
5. Reach 5 digits in my saving account
6. Create at least three mind blasting ad plans by the end of the year
7. Be more active in photography and upload at least 10 good photos into my portfolio in each month
8. Write and read more
9. Go home more often
10. Upload my blogs more often

I am expecting lots of changes in 2011. Hopefully it'll be a great year for everyone.
Happy New Year!!

I miss you like crazy, the amazing 90s

2010-07-06T12:28:00.002+08:00

I started to miss the 90s, where things are most beautiful. I wish time stops there and nothing should change.

The big comeback

2010-06-28T11:00:00.002+08:00

Oh my.. seems like I have abandoned my blog for almost four months now. Just some quick updates on my life. Many things had happened in this few months time. First thing, I am sick. I am having bad cough and it's disturbing my sleep since days ago. =( Well, I am now done with my studies and 'almost' working. Not really a huge transition since previously when I was still in my final I was already working. Just for now, I have a lot of my own time and I rarely socialise. It has only been two weeks since my last class and I am already feeling guilty for not doing anything productive. Most of my friends are now doing their internships, I am too supposedly. But my internship is too easy because I am now an intern for the company that I was working with. I spend most of my time at home now since most of my work is home based and all I need is my laptop. I still need to travel for the wedding shoots at times and I am still busy at most time. Maybe I am complaining too much. I just can't imagine myself working without an office or at least dress well or out of my bed. So with the time and freedom I had, I thought of many things to do. Many things that I wanted to do for a very long time, like going places, snapping pictures, lose like a million pounds, work on a DIY production and the dream goes on and on and on bla bla bla... however, I am still here at the same spot doing nothing. Hmm.. what is my problem I wander. I have a friend that just passed away a week after our graduation. Sad huh? It was unbelievable to all of us, but well, shit happens. Though I was not as close to him as some of my other friends, I know him pretty well as we had been in the same class for 3 years. So many mourned for him, I did too, for days. And I thought how can a person made so many people cared about him and sad for so long for his departure although those people may not be even close to him? Joash is the most selfless person I met in my life. I don't know about other people, but I have not known anyone else that don't think of themselves or rarely. And for that, he had lotsa friends, lotsa real friends that won't look at money or benefits or anything else. Something I learned from this guy, sometimes we should just do things for people for good and never think of the return. Maybe like that people can be happier. I have yet found a way straight to happiness. Maybe I should take some time to ponder about this question and have my life sort out a bit.

Bothered

2010-04-27T03:08:00.003+08:00

I'm bothered, but I cannot be bothered, so I'm not bothered, then I won't be bothering, I won't bother, but still bothered, but I cannot be bothered......

Another wedding - Kong & Esther

2010-04-26T15:35:00.012+08:00

Dream car list

2010-04-23T13:55:00.008+08:00

It's not hard to look for my dream car actually. I just want a car that is fuel saving, efficient as in not under-powered and savvy looking, and most importantly, not too expensive in price. Since I'll be graduating and I'll need to buy my own car soon, I have made myself a list of cars that I might consider.

First, I wanted a MyVi...

I still love the look of the car a lot but now a MyVi is too expensive,

then a Viva...

viva is still in my list cause of its fuel saving factor, but I don't quiet like the look of the car,

then a Saga BLM...

this is fine too but the look and the fuel saving factor is not so my taste. I still prefer hatchback more than sedan. But one thing for sure is that the price is good.

Then, I wanted a TataNano.

Indian made but with Italian design and German technology and parts. And the best thing is, it's the cheapest car in the world. Actually this should be at the top of my list, but too bad, I don't think Malaysia is going to import the car.

And finally, a Proton Emas...

Still not in production yet but this Proton looks pretty catchy. I like the design and the fuel saving factor cause it's a hybrid. But I wander how much will this cost. If it's cheap enough, I think this is the best choice for now. Don't know whether I can than without a car till it launches or not.

Happy Bday pa!!

2010-03-28T12:51:00.000+08:00

Alice in the Wonderland @ MidValley

2010-03-13T21:20:00.003+08:00

I didn't know that the Wonderland that Alice went is actually in MidValley. So small wan...

黄子华万岁！

2010-03-07T05:19:00.007+08:00

I just came back from the Wong Tze Wah talk show in Genting with my family. I felt in love with his performance since the first time I saw him act in some drama series. He is one of the few actors/ artist that I really admire because of his talent. Thanks to my parents generosity, I get to catch his talk show here in Malaysia. Here are some shots I manage to get from the Arena of Stars, Genting Highland.

The opening of the talk show was grand and everyone was practically insane with Tze Wah walked in the hall. But we were sitting quite far away from the stage. These are some shots of the stage from our seats.

However, I did try very hard to get a picture of his face by zooming out all the way with the 18-200mm telephoto lens that I brought. And below are the few that I get to keep from the many that I took.

I love his first outfit. Kinds look like the asian Johnny Depp. Mostly because of his not so handsome appearance but amazingly charming aura.

Some of the pictures are quite harshly edited due to the aperture blur occur when I took the pictures. I should have set the aperture higher.

It's really a nice experience to watch his talk show. Now my next dream will be meeting him in person. He seems like an interesting guy to know.

Mommy's big flower

2010-03-01T12:12:00.006+08:00

The colour of pictures go different when posted in blogspot.... hmmm

So you are welcome to browse more of my pictures in flickr

Super slow shutter

2010-03-01T11:51:00.003+08:00

I manage to snap this picture with a slow shutter and while Kar's moving. Sorry for the blur. :P

Cat next door

2010-02-28T18:45:00.003+08:00

This is the cat living next door. Haven't been seeing her for awhile.

Happy Tiger Year

2010-02-17T02:02:00.004+08:00

My family and I just came back from our Chinese New Year visit to Taiping. Just like every year, we will travel all the way to Taiping to visit my maternal relatives. I used to love Chinese New Year a lot but not so much this year. Don't get me wrong. Everything went well and everyone was happy. Just that my elder sister has been missing Chinese New Year celebrations for many years, so our reunion dinner was of course not perfect without her. Secondly I have been missing Kar for the few days when I was in Taiping. I have been facing him everyday for whole year and on some days I did wish that I can quit seeing him for a few days, but now I think I do suffer more without seeing him. I hope I can officially bring him back to Taiping with me soon. Hehe.. However, I am back and I really wanna work on the things that I want this year. I hope the tiger year will be a great year for everyone. So to Yen and Kar, here are some snapshots from our this year's CNY celebration you guys missed out.

Our 2nd uncle decorated ah po's house with some red lanterns and beautiful decoration lights this year

Like every year, ah pa does cleaning until the sun sets before the reunion dinner

And our family tradition, steamboat reunion dinner.. yum yum ^^

We still pray on the 1st day of CNY and be vegetarians for half a day

Last but not least.. meet our relatives and catch up with everyone

What's wrong with this picture?

2010-02-10T11:39:00.004+08:00

What do you guys thnk about this picture? I find it a bit odd. But I just can't tell what's wrong.

More weddings

2010-02-03T13:00:00.006+08:00

Here are some of the pictures I took during Leong & Pey's wedding on the 31st of January. Cute couple they are. They both have very nice smile and cheerful attitude. Very happy knowing them.

My dream in the year of the tiger

2010-02-02T16:14:00.005+08:00

My dream in the year of the tiger is simple.. it's the same dream I have for almost 10 years but it never happened. Basically

I WANT TO TURN FROM THIS....

TO THIS....

TO THIS...

AND FINALLY TO THIS.....

... and keep it that way from the rest of my life. I want this more than anything in this world.. DESPERATELY!!!

Happy tiger year everyone.

A more interesting post

2010-02-02T00:47:00.014+08:00

Yea.. I had been posting boring post lately because I ran out of idea what to blog. So here is one 'more interesting post'. I've been shooting for a couple of weddings for this two weekends. Just started this as a hobby and not as a job. But of course I get to eat the wedding dinner too lah.. hehehe... Since I love weddings so much and since I'm no good in photography so I tag along with Kar and a few of his photography kakis to their work. I pinjam-ed Kar's Nikon D40x and took some shots too. Below are David and Daris's wedding actual day pictures I took. My virgin wedding photography session. I didn't have a flash gun so I have to keep deleting the blur shots (especially all the motion shots). So not professional lah, but luckily I still get to keep around 200 plus photos. Here are some of my favourites. Enjoy and comment. Once again.. saya baru belajar, kalau salah tolong tunjukan... Manyak-manyak telima kasih.

I like what this guy said

2010-01-13T19:10:00.004+08:00

Seems like the word "Allah" is now the most famous word in the country. So have the protesters got what they wanted?

What a great way to start a new year

2010-01-12T17:34:00.004+08:00

I'm truly speechless about what is happening here in Malaysia. The christian used the word Allah to refer their God in their internal circulated newsletter and the Muslim found out and came out to protest that the word Allah can only be used by the Muslims. I am not an extremist and I'll never understand how they think. Allah means 'one and only God'. So what if one thinks that the one and only God is not the God that the Muslims refers to? Should they call Him Dog instead? Sigh.. what a waste of time.

How many crazy things will you do in your life time?

2010-01-01T02:24:00.004+08:00

First of all.. happy new year to all. We're officially 2 years away from doomsday. Second of all, I am writing this post to mark the most embarrassing moment of my life till now. I bumped into the MYFM roving team two days ago at the entrance of Sunway Lagoon as I was planning to visit Sunway Lagoon's free night park. The roving team as always, was asking questions and giving out gifts to the crowd. I was there late so I was only managed to get myself a pack of tissue. Right before the roving team was about to finish their business there, the girl in the picture ask a volunteer to perform something funny to the crowd and if the crowd thinks tat it is funny, the person will get a RM 50 and a carton of 7UP Revive. And I went up!! I told the crowd a super cold joke and did a really ugly face in front of so many people, and at the end.. I got my RM 50. I felt so stupid and happy at the same time.

Digital drawing

2009-12-09T12:56:00.003+08:00

This is my most recent digital drawing done using 12 hours. I've done others but I think I like this the most.

Photography virgin no more

2009-11-27T17:13:00.006+08:00

Here's some of the pictures I've taken on a photography trip with Kar today. We went down to Kuala Lumpur city centre just for this. I shot these photos using a Nikon D70s. I was a photography virgin so my photographs are not something superbly awesome. I didn't pay much attention in composing my shots either. It was after all my first time holding a DSLR in the street and pointing it at strangers' faces. I heard bad things about photographers in KL so I was actually looking at my back all the time. The trip was fulfilling though. Miss the life in KL so much...

Clean up

2009-11-25T19:57:00.009+08:00

I just cleaned up my computer desktop today. Here are some pictures laying on my desktop and I've been ignoring their existence long enough. These pictures were taken at the beginning of this year at the temple reaching Genting Highland with my handphone.

What's wrong with the system??

2009-10-02T05:14:00.004+08:00

I'm gonna be very frank in this post. I dislike a lecturer. Well.. as far as I know, initially, almost all of my friend in class dislike her as well. But, for any reason, those who initially said that, they will make a move because of it, has, for any reason, forgotten about the idea. But then again, the impact on me is somewhat more than the others. She again, did something very rude to me today, but I, which in respect of her position, I did what she 'ordered' me to do, but it was unnecessary. Then I was surprise when my classmate came to me and told me not to do things that can give her a chance to do something to me. And the sadder thing to know is, he knows that she is bias towards me. My argument was, if she has a prejudice on me, what ever I do or how ever I act, she will has something to say about it. So should I be the one who 'don't do things that would trigger her'? It's such a typical thing to do when people are being oppressed. People just keep quite and let the authorities walk all over us. Same goes to the general Malaysian, what ever the Government say, right or wrong, we just follow. Just because they are branded with a title, doesn't mean what they say is law. I certainly would like live with some dignity and I will not let anyone step on top me and take over my life. She marks my papers, so what? Does that mean if I do good and she will still fail me? There are things beyond my result that she can damage. I have mood swings because of her, lost sleep because of her, having irregular period because her, and more. Probably some day I'd kill myself because I'm so angry about her.. Just probably.. I couldn't illustrate my feelings so well, so I'm posting this video below to help me explain what I wanna say. If I did something wrong, you may punish me, same goes to any one regardless.

Lease sell

2009-10-02T04:12:00.001+08:00

Finally, lease sell.. Enjoy XD

Earthquake

2009-10-01T23:14:00.001+08:00

I felt earthquake today... My boyfriend and rat felt it too.

Something's not right

2009-08-30T04:00:00.003+08:00

Ever felt a hunch that something has gone wrong but you can't tell in your conscious mind what exactly is it? It just kills you so much and pushes you to do things you won't do just to get over the situation. Or else, enjoy being in the limbo and face the broken fiddle playing the out of tune music to your bleeding heart until the problem gets too big and reveal itself like a giant hamburger fall down from the sky and landed in front of you. The feeling is not much different then someone sprinkling salt on your open wound, or kicking your dick with an iron shoe. There is no way of escaping. Unless do what your red devil on your shoulder asked you to do.

Tickle.. I miss you

2009-08-26T22:09:00.006+08:00

Dear Tickle,

I knew you since you were a baby. I still remember the first day I got you home, you were so frighten. Before this you were living together with your brothers and sisters, but there were only you and one of your brother left in the cage when I bought you from the pet store. You were a feeder rat back then. You didn’t like me touching you and always hide yourself from me. It was such a miracle moment to me the first time you took the piece of kua chi from my hand. I spend most of the time worrying about you. You were always the delicate one to me. Your home, your food and your sister were all specially picked for you. I only sung to you, so that you can sleep soundly. I am the one who named you Tickle, because you like to run over you daddy and me and tickle us.

A week after getting you, we went to look for a sister for you, and that’s how we got Milo home. I still remember the first time you met Milo. She was so much tinier than you and you just didn’t care much. You jumped on her and started tickling her. After a short wrestling session, you two became good friends. You used to hug her to sleep and gave her your food and always protecting her. Milo grew up strong and active, and turned out to be Milo was the one keep giving us the headache, and you, as always, being nice and always contented at what you had.

I miss seeing you guys chasing at each other around and around the cage. You look so healthy and happy back then. You and Milo are two smart rats. You remember me teaching you your names, how to stand, and you will always know what it means when I open a plastic bag - **that’s our secret**. I always feel guilty not being able to let you two out from the cage that often because I’m afraid that you two might bite holes on your daddy’s clothes. You must have been very angry at me huh. Although I did not fulfil my promise of bring you guy out for shopping, I hope you enjoy our trip to Taiping together, and I hope you are happy for meeting so many people in your live. To be honest, I am very pound of you and your sister. You two have change so many people’s thinking and make them fall in love with rats.

I am sorry for not being able to take good care at you and protect you at all time. I shouldn’t have left you at the living room those days and let you inhale second hand smoke or attacked by cats. I am so sorry that I did not give you a bigger cage for you to run around, and I am sorry for not providing you the best quality food and health care so that you can live long and healthy.

I couldn’t do much at the final days when your health deteriorate. I can only hug you in my arms and hope that it will make you feel better. And you never disappointed me and always show me that you were okay by grinding your teeth. You were always there for me, happy and sad times, but I wasn’t there for you when you really needed me. I even made you promised that you can never leave me when I’m not around, but I guess you hung on there for too long.

I just wish you could stay longer. There are still so many things I wanna tell you. I can no longer call Tickle & Milo anymore. Can no longer say good night to you and see you first thing in the morning. You rest in peace baby Tickle. Mommy will take good care of Milo and promise to protect her like you do. I love you Tickle. Milo loves you. Daddy loves you too. Good night forever. We miss you. I'd give anything just to spend another day with you. I cannot stop crying now, but don’t worry.. I will stop when the time comes.

Love you forever and ever,
Mommy

One job done

2009-08-24T02:05:00.002+08:00

I've completed my first client's order. A pencil caricature based on a photograph. The theme is golf. The work has already been framed up and ready to be delivered to the customer tomorrow.

Happy Birthday Clement

2009-08-24T01:58:00.004+08:00

This is Clement, my boyfriend's cousin. He just turn 21 today, so happy birthday. The one below is my present for him, a 5 minutes live sketch caricature. The work is not nice I think. Haven't been drawing for a week.

RIP Blacky

2009-08-06T21:16:00.002+08:00

Our extraordinarily smart Blacky passed away yesterday (5th August 2009) on a rainy day. He was the smartest rat. He knew his name without us teaching him and he liked to walk with his hide legs all the time. He has a pair of huge ears and very good in escaping. We will always remember you Blacky. Love you so much. Rest in peace. I believe that you are in good hands now.

Tribute to Yasmin Ahmad (1959-2009)

2009-07-29T03:36:00.006+08:00

I have no idea how to express my grief towards Yasmin's departure. I wish to share my feeling with the world by drawing this portrait.

A star laid to rest

2009-07-26T13:03:00.002+08:00

Yasmin Ahmad, 51, an award winning director passed away last night at 11.45 p.m.. I received the news first thing after waking up. I remember dreaming about one of her advertisement when I was asleep and I walking out of the cinema crying. She is always a person who I admire a lot, and I thought I could at least meet her, or talk to her or even work with her once in my life time. Sepet, Gubra, Mualaf, Talentime are the few famous films from her and have been inspirations for many local and overseas directors. I am truly sad for the lost.

Some lame monologue

2009-07-24T14:10:00.006+08:00

Just found out that I'm better in drawing than writing. What am I talking about, I knew that I am better in drawing than writing like decades ago. Someone even said to me that I'll probably be a top scorer in an art college. That reminds me of the reason why I enter this college. I was weak in writing you see. And I can't recall from where did I get the idea of, to be good in communication, you must first be good in language. Well, partially true, even though now I know language is not everything. So I made my own decision to polish up my language here. Although I have complains about my college asking us to write too much rather than teaching us more about real communications, but that is what I wanted at the beginning, to learn to write better. I spoke to this person last night regarding my result in school. On the paper, it looks as though as I did not make any improvement at all. This thing always bothers me. Every semester, no matter how hard I worked, I still get the same damn result. Then this person asked me what grade I think I deserve, and I confidently said I deserve at least a D (distinction). Although my writing is not perfect, but I can honestly say that I have improve so much, and it's good enough to tell the stories in my mind. (Try reading my earlier post.. you'll know what I mean). So he said, 'then you have already got a D for yourself'. The paper does not show my effort, nor my improvement. A grade is just what one lecturer's opinion. Well, I remember painting some art work that I think is ugly and the rest of the world think that it's extraordinarily awesome. My opinion, it's still not good enough. The point is, what matters most is still what I think for myself. I do know the fact that my future employer will most probably look at that paper and judge me by it first. The only way to get through it is, 'make them don't look at the papers'. That's what I should be learning, the real communication, even without the bombastic English. Please don't misunderstand that I am turning into the most ignorant person in the world. I just need to quit inferiority and self pity in me and be proud but humble of my achievements.

My result..

2009-07-24T00:42:00.000+08:00

I'm cursed!!!

The answer is....

2009-07-17T22:45:00.003+08:00

Stella Chung

Harith Iskandar

Adibah Noor

Who is this?

2009-07-17T10:44:00.002+08:00

Who are these people?

Hint: She's a host/ singer/ actor in the local Chinese media.

Hint: He's a funny guy. Always plays the daddy role in movies.

Hint: She has a big personality and a big voice. She sings beautifully and very good in acting too.

Result's out

2009-07-15T16:36:00.002+08:00

Just got 2 of my 4 subjects' result. Sigh... result is better than my last sem, but still not as good as I think. I thought I can break free from the 'P1 and C curse' or 'just credit' curse. Obviously I'm still not good enough. Hopefully I'll get better news for the result of 2 other subjects. *finger cross*.

Jusco food is 'cheap'!!!!

2009-07-15T14:16:00.005+08:00

Here's the price of 2 plate of nasi kandar (Malay mix rice) from Jusco Sunway Pyramid food court.

You can start cursing now.

The answer is....

2009-07-13T12:12:00.001+08:00

Najib Tun Razak

and

Jaclyn Victor

Who is this?

2009-07-10T07:47:00.004+08:00

Guess who are the people in the caricature below.

Hint: Someone important that you'll see in him the newspaper almost everyday.

Hint: She sings

Some updates

2009-07-08T20:56:00.003+08:00

There isn't any interesting things happened till recently. I just open a caricature shop online in lowyat.net. And my first business just came in a few days ago. I will be engaged for a ministerial event to do some caricatures there. And also.. I've just received a call this evening. Haven magazine decided to interview me regarding my school of rats blog. It was a month ago since I wrote a major essay about my rats, and now I get to tell more people about rats in the media. How cool is that. In conclusion, I am very exciting now and the reason of this blog post is to brag. Lol.. just kidding.

My 'to do' list before thirty

2009-06-21T15:48:00.002+08:00

Just gone through my sister's blog. She mentioned about a list of things to do before thirty. Hmm.. shame to say that I've almost forgotten about that. So I've decided to make a new list now. At least to keep my aim in target.

1. Lose 20 kg and maintain it. (This has been in the top of my list for at least ten years and it is still top... sad.. =( )
2. Be a millionaire (Thanks for reminding me, Cheng. I thought it is kinda impossible now in my situation.. but hell.. having a aim is always good)
3. Get an awesome job and work happily
4. Learn more languages
5. Buy a house
6. Keep and train at least 5 rats
7. Make my family proud and happy
8. Get married
9. Paint the most beautiful painting in the world
10. Sing on stage

Gloomy day

2009-06-17T15:09:00.003+08:00

It's not about the weather that I am talking. I feel a sudden sadness in me since last night, for no reason at all. Even my boyfriend is frustrated at my emo-ness, because he just simply can't understand why am I being like that. There's nothing that he did wrong. No one did anything. I just remember tearing over the song 'You and me'.

The sky is clear

2009-06-17T15:06:00.002+08:00

The sky is clear after the heavy rain two nights ago here in Sunway.

The haze is back

2009-06-12T17:10:00.006+08:00

The News Straits Times reported on the front page about a month ago (11/6/09) that air quality in Port Klang drops badly, reaching unhealthy levels with Air Polution Index (API) as high as 125. On the 3rd of June, the director -General of the Department of Environment (DOE), Datuk Rosnani Ibarahim said, 'it just looks hazy, but there's no haze in Malaysia at the moment' (The Malaysian Insider, 2009). For about a month I have been smelling smoke whenever I set foot off my door. I am still not yet recover from my dreadful cough I caught few weeks ago. Visibility has also gone down. The sun and moon seem to be more reddish then normal days for the pass few days. Reuters reported today that the number of forest fires raging in Indonesia's Sumatra island has increased, with the wind blowing choking smoke over parts of Malaysia and slashing visibility. The worst haze hit was in 1997, when drought caused by the El Nino weather led to major Indonesian fires. This year is also an El Nino year, which the haze threat may remain for at least two more months. It was reported that the condition may worsen if rain don't fall. The API today shows that two areas are now fallen into the unhealthy zone, including Port Klang with 138 points and Cheras with 107 points. Petaling Jaya, Shah Alam, Kajang, Putrajaya and Nilai hit more than 90 points. I wander why hasn't the local media starts to show concern on the issue. Time like this, when deadly deceases are widely spreading, it is dangerous to fall sick. Outdoor activities should be reduced by now, drink more water, keep yourself healthy and use water wisely. Authorities are keeping eye on dam water levels, as there are already signs which indicate the reduction of water levels during the dry session.

I need more time

2009-06-03T14:34:00.003+08:00

My rats are getting older. They are not as active as before. They sleep almost for the whole day now. I used to see them playing in their cage, climbing up and down and looking out from the cage and listen when I speak. They are turning 2 years old in a few months times. They only can live up to 3 years or maybe less. They are my best-est friends ever and I haven't been treating them the best. When I'm sad and lonely, they will always be there for me, but I on the other hand, neglect them most of the time, even if their eyes tell me that they just want to spend more time with me. I am afraid the day when they will leave me comes. I want to treat them better.. treat them best. I need more time.

Extreme makeover

2009-05-31T12:03:00.003+08:00

I have been letting time to do the job and hoping I will lose some weight naturally. Well... it's not working. I'm gonna start my food diary today.. Cant stand being a whale anymore. My clothes are not fitting. =(

Communication breakdown

2009-05-31T02:55:00.003+08:00

The internet was gone for two days and now it's back. It was like living in a cave without internet. I can't do my assignment, can't Youtube, can't facebook, can't Twit, can't Google.. To top that up, the house phone was gone too. It felt like end of the world. Can't imagine if that last any longer.

My video production

2009-05-02T00:42:00.003+08:00

Here's my first video production for my class assignment.

This is for Mom..

2009-04-27T20:07:00.003+08:00

This is a card/ paper I've made for my mom's birthday. Thank you Wan Cheng for uploading this picture. Ignore the grammatical error inside. When I realised it's already too late.. if you can spot it. *_*

Who is this?

2009-04-13T04:55:00.002+08:00

Who is the person in the painting? I painted this a month ago using black water colour on drawing block.

The definition of GROSS!!!

2009-04-12T05:20:00.003+08:00

How would you describe gross? Things that makes you puke? Or things that makes your hair stand? Or this....... O.o

Yuck!! yuck!! yuck!! yuck!! I can't believe I ate one of these slimy thingy (escargot) in France because they said it is expensive. Errgg....

War of pen.. cils...

2009-04-12T05:09:00.005+08:00

What I've done with a Nikon D40. And this is what I learn everyday in class. To be a superhero with a pen.. or in this case, pencil.

Everyone's going vulgar

2009-04-12T04:32:00.006+08:00

ME: Baby, why is everyone vulgar these days?

KAR: Really? Not everyone.

ME: Everyone.

KAR: ??

ME: Even God's vulgar now.

KAR: What??!! O.o

ME: See... (Point)

KAR: Where got?

ME: Now you see?

Another obituary

2009-04-10T06:15:00.007+08:00

The kitten that I rescued that day had passed away. I named him Pocket, after his tiny size that can fit into a pocket. He passed away in his sleep on a rainy evening on the 8th of April. I remember hearing his meow on that morning, but it was much weaker than how it used to be when we first got him back. He was just about one week old when we got him back with one of his eyes still closed and its ear folded. It surprised us on the next day when both of his bright eyes opened widely staring at us and a few days later it started to walk a little. He is indeed a very special kitten to us. He liked to sleep on our palms and never liked feeding time. Probably that's why his heart got too weak to beat and finally gave up on the 7th day staying with us. We used to hate him for his constant meows and we had never stopped worrying about him since the first day we got him back. And now we're missing its meows. I'll miss you always, Pocket.

New hope of life

2009-04-01T03:17:00.005+08:00

It was a shock to me when I found out that Bubble has left us. I am actually still feeling quite heavy inside. But something very special happened tonight. I went out for dinner and there I saw a little kitten, about a week old I think, laying on the floor, meowing in its weak and small voice. I keep pet rats at home and I thought it was a wild rat that got injured. And then as I touched it, it meowed. It was as small as a rat. It's eyes aren't completely open yet and can barely stand up. I brought the poor kitten home and I am planning to keep it until someone decides to adopt it. It was such a weird coincident that in a day, I lost one of my companion, and I found another new friend. The kitten is up for adoption. Really hope someone can give the poor kitten a proper home as soon as possible as my rats are kinda afraid of the little kitten. I guess it's a natural instinct thing.

Obituary

2009-04-01T03:06:00.003+08:00

In memory of Bubble, the happy gold fish.

Name: Bubble
Species: Long tail comet gold fish
Date of death: 31 March 2009

He was our first company when we first moved into this apartment. We decided to name him Bubble as his nature, he liked to fetch bubbles near the water pump and blew them out on the surface for the water. Bubble brought us laughter as we always described him as a dog fish. He'd begged for food and was always hungry for attention. He was there with us all this while and now he has left to a better place. I wish him eternal peace in where ever he is now.

Back to school

2009-03-13T20:35:00.004+08:00

After a long long long long break, I'm finally back. And for this time, I am actually glad. I am glad that I've finally ended my job in the kindergarten. Honestly, for the very first time, I like to study. Taking up the job was almost close to putting myself in hell. However, despite the horrible experience, it still thought be something valuable. Leaving the job was easy, but leaving the kids was hard. It was painful to see them force out a smile on the sad faces. Sad to say that it is a lesson that they have to learn in life. Every meeting ends with separation. I came back this semester having less friends around. Some of my buddies went to Australia to continue their studies there. Well, I am not so sad about that. With today's technologies, communication is so easy. We can always chat on MSN and see on webcam. It almost feel like they haven't actually left us. Anyway, back to talking about my studies. Surprisingly, I am actually excited with the syllabus this semesters. We finally get to do more of the things that which is in our field. I'm actually pretty eager to start my assignments because guess what, this semester is so cool. We get to produce our own (self-written) video production, do open-book quizzes, debate on forums, write article free-style and some other presentation and essays. Actually I am just excited with the fact that we don't need to swallow text books anymore. I am now brain storming the topics that I am going to write on for my first creative writing assignment. Time to go back to work.

Finally... an update

2009-02-21T13:42:00.002+08:00

This post is kinda long winded so please bear with me. I have been working in the kindergarten lately. I was a kindergarten teacher before because I love kids a lot. I guess it is a natural thing for me to teach. I have 3 younger sister which I basically took care of them when they were young. I helped my mom to baby sit my sisters while she did all the cooking and cleaning. I remember teaching baby sisters to sing ABC and write their names when they haven't even got into the kindergarten. I also remember playing cutting hair with my 3rd sister Wan Cheng in my room and end up sticking all her hair back with plasters because we didn't want our mom to scold us. I enjoy being with kids. After so many years, I still have the feeling of being a big sister when I'm with kids. I wasn't a best child last time and certainly not the best teacher now. I can be naughty as them at times. But thankfully all my students turned out to be good and most importantly they had their best time during their childhood. My ex-students are doing well in their primary school now. Hmm.. miss them a lot.

Working in this kindergarten however is not as happy as before. I felt that I have been under-appreciated. The centre head of the kindergarten even gave me comment such as 'You don't look like a teacher who has 5 years experience to me...'. For her, she said she had done researches and been through many training and stuff hence she doesn't think that I am good enough to teach. She said my way of teaching is forcing the child and that will stress the child psychologically. I do not agree of some method that they are using to educate the children like setting limits for the children and not being able to see the children's talent. All I did was just letting the children try what they like to do. I hate seeing them being ordered to do things and no question should be asked. I on the other hand like them to question. Teach them to ask 'why' for the things that they do not know or do not like. It might look as though as it is an act of rebellious but to me it is a sign of liberty. My thinking is the children will listen to you if you are able to give them a reason to do so. Not by force or authority.

I hate going to work for the first two weeks because of this. I am asked to just shut-up and listen. But as usual, do I look like a person who give a damn? Even me as a teacher hate to go to school, imagine what the children is feeling. Until this week, the children starts to get closer to me and start telling me their thoughts. They really like me being there. Telling them things about life by sharing my experience with them. I was touched when I heard a child told me she wants to be like to when she grow up. I feel so sorry for them because I will be leaving soon. Still thinking ways to break the news to them. The only thing that is keeping me there is my kids. I really hope I made a difference during this short month.

Insomnia

2009-01-14T05:44:00.003+08:00

I think I'm having insomnia. I feel extremely tired but I just couldn't fall asleep. Normally the events happen in that day will flash in my eyes before I fall asleep but these two days I find it hard to do so. Once I close my eyes, all I can see is my rat staring at me doing nothing. Yes.. I am pretty bored these days. Feel like life is zombie-ish again. Nothing much happen lately. At least nothing interesting enough for me to remember. It is hard to describe the dilemma in me but the obvious feeling I am having is the very strong and rapid heart beat in me. I have the urge to cry but I can't. I've actually forgotten that I haven't been hanging out with any friends since November. Even before.. I never hang out.

I just had an argument with Kar. Well.. anyone who knows me know that I only blog when something goes wrong. I waited for him at the door for 2 hours which he had already said he will be back in an hour. I don't know why I got so pissed about it. It's always waiting that I am doing. Probably I envy him, having friends to hang out with. In a moment I actually think won't it be nice if I am the one out with friends and forgotten about the time and having him waiting for me at the door (don't really mean that but you get what I mean). My mood was really bad these days due to unknown reasons. He said sorry once as he walked in and continue telling me his story of his hang out with his friends. It was probably my sub-conscious that did the selective listening, as I only hear his 'sorry' very very softly. I only feel the anger burning in me as he talks more of his story and he was getting excited with it. I was wandering did he said the 'sorry' because he is really sorry for making me wait, making me frustrated, making me sad or just saying 'sorry' because he was suppose to apologise. After he explained his misunderstanding in some part of my anger/ problem, I still feel not satisfied because he gets even angry as I was angry at him. I just don't understand what that sorry actually means to him and me. And it seems so wrong to him that I was actually angry for that (for so long). Maybe (he said it himself) that was a small matter. It's not to me. I couldn't make it clear as my anger clouded me at that moment.

Still I wanna admit that I overreacted, mostly because I wasn't in good mood. Maybe it's just hard for guys to understand a girl's thinking. Not to complicated after all. I just want a truly 'sorry because I hurt your feelings by making you wait for me for an hour, I won't do it again because I don't want you to get sad'.

I'm fat

2008-12-28T21:59:00.007+08:00

I am at least 10 kg heavier than I was last year. Just had an emotional discussion with my boyfriend regarding the issue. I always hate it when this weight issue is bothering my normal life. I was a chubby kid back then and my mom used to call me a DBKL because I always finish all the left overs on the dining table after everyone finished their meal. And those words always make me sad. Somehow, no matter how much weight I lose, I am always a fat chick inside. It's like a curse. There have been so many dieting talks lately that makes me so !@£$%^&*. Pardon me but I really don't know what word should I used to describe how I feel. It was the same feeling when the DBKL status was granted to me. Since I left high school, I've decided to just be a happy person. Why care so much when myself is just so comfortable under this skin. Since then life has been easy for me. Probably back then I was under my mother's care, I eat and sleep well and my weight was just nice. This year's weight gain is most probably because of the poor diet control after moving out. It was not actually my problem until lately. My boyfriend's family members are all great in shape and his mom is very particular in take caring her food intake. Even his bother's girlfriend has super slim and hot body. It stresses me honestly. Everyone repeatedly tells me the same thing, 'Annie, you just need to eat the correct proportion'. Sigh.. It is just hard not to get hungry in the middle of the night doing so. I know... I know... It's always 'You're just giving yourself excuses'. I've been doing this for most of the part of my life. It is either my own bloody fault, or God just played a trick on me. Well, the rules is not up to me, I guess I need to play by the rules until I win, or I die.

Grew up a little

2008-11-14T22:30:00.005+08:00

The semester is finally ending. Surprisingly this year I feel a little heavy hearted to leave the college. Probably it is because I know that some of my best friends will not be coming back for the next semester after the holiday and that means this might be the last time I'm going to see them. Or probably I do really had memorable times during this semester. People have been nice to me.. o well.. some people have been nice to me at least. But no matter how much I hate stepping my foot to that place, I still find it hard for me to just stand up and leave. Many things happened in these few months. Good and bad. This semester was tough to me. Not just academically, but also emotionally and physically. Many gave be headaches, but many helped me along the road too. To think back now, the struggle was bad, but it made me grow. I now understand that life is not perfect and it never will be, but that is also the beauty of it. What we are all after for is just happiness not perfection. That is what I learnt.

Rat.. stand!!

2008-11-03T19:10:00.001+08:00

My rats learn to stand on command..

My Mastercard Ad

2008-10-25T03:01:00.004+08:00

After doodling in front of the computer for 30 minutes in my DMT tutorial class, I made myself a new ad for Mastercard... ^^

The photoshop is a bit cacat, but you get the point.

What's my passion?

2008-10-22T17:25:00.008+08:00

It has been long since I really sit down and think about what I want to be. This use to be a regular question that I always answer when I was young. I wanted to become a stewardess when I was in kindergarten because stewardess are all pretty. Then I want to become a policewomen when I was in standard one, the reason is just because of the uniform of a policewomen looks nice (in my childhood picture dictionary of course). When I became a little older, I wanted to be a singer. I realize I enjoy singing a lot. Everyone who knows my family well must also know that all my sisters and I are songbirds. We used sing non stop on our way back home in my dad's car after meals. When I was in form one, I was first taught how to paint, then I won for my first time in an art competition. Since that time, I love painting a lot too, that was when I thought I want to be an artist. But even though I had a dream in the art side, I still pursue my studies in science stream. That was the young and naive side of me that made that choice. My understanding back than was 'clever people go to science stream, stupid people go to art stream'. Well, that was what the education system taught me. Good result go to science stream, bad result go to art stream. I was just thinking I don't want to be called as a stupid who don't study science, that's all. Oh well.. moving on. I remember I wanted to be designer when I grow up because I create my own stuff and don't need to memorize other people's stuff. I told my mom about it last time and she said designer is very hard to earn a living, so I gave up. I know this very young that money is the most important thing of all. Finally, I got into my form six education in a sub-science stream. I studied economics and felt in love with it. I love to see how money is so easy to earn in the economy (theory), hence I wanted to be an entrepreneur, but as time passed, I felt lazy because to become an entrepreneur, there are a lot to do and sacrifice and I felt that I wasn't ready for that. As I was getting desperate for an ambition, I pick one for myself, I choose to be in the communication line. Not because I think I am good in it, because it is the most versatile course, which means you can still be in which industry you wanna be after taking this course. But PR, events, promotions, advertising are all related to this course, and my interests are mostly in this field, so I finally took up this course. Honestly, I still didn't know what I want to be as I enter college. I though college will bring me closer to what I want to be, but Taylor's College communication course just brought be further from my dream so far. I mentioned in my pass blog post that how Taylor's College has disappoint Media Management students, it crushes my dream as well. I wanted to an advertiser, but I fail my first advertising assignment (lucky my next assignment wasn't that bad) which bring down my sprit so much of wanting to be an advertiser. Then a broadcaster. As I show my first video shooting to my boyfriend, he said it wasn't even up to standard yet to compare to other colleges' students' work. Sigh.. There it goes. I'm doomed. I can't find something to have my passion in it already. I know this is a terrible time to run out of passion.. hell, Im already 21. Kar told be that if a person's passion is true, it won't be crushed that easy. Obviously, I didn't have a passion before because I all dreams had been crushed some part in my life. I'm not blaming anyone for this. I guess sometimes, life is just like that. You can't have all you want. Well, many people of my mom and dad's generation did not get their chance to pursue their dreams either, so what's for whine. Or maybe someday, I'll finally get to have that, the fire in my heart that will not die off even how many obstacles there are. I hope to have that one day.

Mentari Court Room to Let

2008-09-30T13:32:00.003+08:00

A small room available now in Mentari Court now.
Housemate moving out... need a new housemate ASAP.. =)
Contact me to know the details. (Email, MSN or just leave me a comment)

Properties thread in LowYat.net:
http://forum.lowyat.net/index.php?showtopic=815649&st=0&p=20596244&#entry20596244

What if..

2008-09-15T01:16:00.007+08:00

What if there is this thing, that you know that it is killng the one that you love the most, yet the loved one can't live without it, what will you do? He wants you to know as that will make help him in reducing his stress and he said will help him to quit the problem. But it's just you, after knowing it, you will find ways to stop him from doing it, yet you don't want to be the one who gives him another source of stress, so you decided to be supportive to him by letting him take it. But how could you? Supporting him to take something harmful? But if he'll not tell you, he'll take more behind you and he'll have to lie to you, how could you? What I do? I cry alone, smile to him and keep quiet. I don't know a better way.

Mooncake festival

2008-09-14T00:33:00.003+08:00

It's a day away from mooncake festival. Traditionally members of a family will go back to their home on this day, just like the full moon on this day - 'tuan yuan' - which means completeness and togetherness. This year I won't be able to join my family for the celebration. Mooncake festival used to mean alot to me when I was young. My sisters and I used to enjoy this day burning candles and playing lantern in front of our house back in our childhood days. Until we all grew up and no one care more about this day anymore other than my mom.

I am missing it now. I miss those days when I can smell the scent of incenses in the morning and helping my mom preparing offerings for the family's ancestors; than the meal with chicken, char siew, and many many other dishes on the table waiting for us to feast on; then the candles and the lantern. Seems like I can't get those things back to me anymore.

Happy mooncake festival...

I have a pimple at a weird place on my body

2008-09-13T00:28:00.002+08:00

'I have a pimple at a weird place on my body.... >.<'

That phrase was on my MSN personal message for 2 days and I already had 20 people asking me where the pimple is. LOL... Curiosity kills the cat... It's fun to play with people's imagination sometimes. XD

PETRONAS & petrol hike

2008-09-03T02:29:00.002+08:00

I find this post in my elder sister, Yee Yen's blog interesting.

Letter 1

Dear all,

After reading all the chain mails and blogs, I feel called to reply, because of the relentless attacks and allegations -- most of which are inaccurate or baseless -- against PETRONAS.

PETRONAS' STAFF SALARY & BONUS

1) The salaries paid to PETRONAS' employees are not as high as people think. At best, they are just industry average. And these are not attractive enough for some who left PETRONAS to find work at other companies (mainly from the Middle East) which are willing to pay more. Why do they pay more? The oil and gas industry worldwide has been facing acute shortage of qualified or experienced personnel, so most companies are willing to pay lots of money to entice and pinch staff from their competitors.

Bonus? There has NEVER been a bonus amounting to 6 months or 12 months throughout the 33 years. On average, it is 2 months. But don't ever think we don't deserve it. We more than deserve it. A lot of us work really hard, some in the most extreme of conditions. Those who have been to and worked in northern Sudan, for example, would testify that it's like working in a huge blower oven. Southern Sudan, on the other hand, is almost all swamps and mud. Imagine having to go through that kind of heat, or waddling in muddy swamps, day in and day out.

QUALITY OF CRUDE & REFINED PRODUCTS

2) Malaysia produces about 600,000 barrels of crude oil per day (and about 100,000 barrels condensate). Of this crude volume, 339,000 barrels are refined locally for local consumption. The rest is exported (and yes, because it has lower sulphur content it fetches higher prices).

Malaysia also imports about 230,000 barrels of crude oil per day, mainly from the Middle East, to be refined here. This crude oil contains higher sulphur and is less expensive (so the country gains more by exporting our crudes). In Malaysia, this crude is processed by PETRONAS at its second refinery in Melaka, and also by Shell at its Port Dickson refinery.

Different refineries are built and configurated to refine different types of crude. And each crude type yields different percentage of products (diesel, gasoline, kerosene, cooking gas etc) per barrel.

But most importantly, products that come out at the end of the refining process have the same good quality regardless of the crude types. That's why PETRONAS, Shell and Exxon Mobil share the same pipeline to transport the finished products from their refineries to a distribution centre in the Klang Valley. The three companies collect the products at this centre accordingly to be distributed to their respective distribution networks. What makes PETRONAS' petrol different from Shell's, for example, is the additive that each company adds.

PETRONAS' ROLE, FUNCTION & CONTRIBUTION

3) A lot of people also do not understand the role and function of PETRONAS, which is essentially a company, a business entity, which operates on a commercial manner, to mainly generate income and value for its shareholder. In this case, PETRONAS' shareholder is the Government.

In 1974, when PETRONAS was set up, the Government gave PETRONAS RM10 million (peanuts, right?) as seed capital. From 1974 to 2007, PETRONAS made RM570 billion in accumulated profits, and returned to the Government a total of RM335.7 billion. That is about 65% of the profits. That means for every RM1 that PETRONAS makes, 65 sen goes back to the Government.

Last year, PETRONAS made a pre-tax profit of RM86.8 billion. The amount given back to the Government (in royalty, dividends, corporate income tax, petroleum products income tax and export duty) was RM52.3 billion. The rest of the profit was used to pay off minority interests and taxes in foreign countries (about RM7.8 billion - PETRONAS now operates in more than 30 countries), and the remaining RM26.7 billion was reinvested. The amount reinvested seems a lot, but the oil and gas industry is technology- and capital-intensive. Costs have gone up exponentially in the last couple of years. Previously, to drill a well, it cost about US$3 million; now it costs US$7 million. The use of rigs was US$200,000 a day a couple of years ago; now it costs US$600,000 a day.

A lot of people also do not realise that the amount returned by PETRONAS to the Government makes up 35% of the Government's total annual income, to be used by the Government for expenditures, development, operations, and yes, for the various subsidies. That means for every RM1 the Government makes, 35 sen is contributed by PETRONAS.

So, instead of asking what happens to PETRONAS' money or profits, people should be questioning how the money paid by PETRONAS to the Government is allocated.

CRUDE EXPORTS & FUEL PRICES

4) A lot of people also ask, why Malaysia exports its crude oil. Shouldn't we just stop exporting and sell at cheaper prices to local refiners? If Malaysia is an oil exporting country, why can't we sell petrol or diesel at cheaper prices like other oil producing countries in the Middle East?

I guess I don't have to answer the first couple of questions. It's simple economics, and crude oil is a global commodity.

Why can't we sell petrol and diesel at lower prices like in the Middle East? Well, comparing Saudi Arabia and other big producers to Malaysia is like comparing kurma to durian, because these Middle Eastern countries have much, much, much bigger oil and gas reserves.

Malaysia has only 5.4 billion barrels of oil reserves, and about 89 trillion cubic feet of gas. Compare that to Saudi Arabia's 260 billion barrels of oil and 240 trillion cubic feet of gas.

Malaysia only produces 600,000 barrels per day of oil. Saudi Arabia produces 9 million barrels per day. At this rate, Saudi Arabia's crude oil sales revenue could amount to US$1.2 billion per day! At this rate, it can practically afford almost everything -- free education, healthcare, etc, and subsidies -- for its people.

But if we look at these countries closely, they have in the past few years started to come up with policies and strategies designed to prolong their reserves and diversify their income bases. In this sense, Malaysia (and PETRONAS) has had a good head start, as we have been doing this a long time.

Fuel prices in Malaysia is controlled by the Government based on a formula under the Automatic Pricing Mechanism introduced more than a couple of decades ago. It is under this mechanism that the complex calculation of prices is made, based on the actual cost of petrol or diesel, the operating costs, margin for dealers, margin for retail oil companies (including PETRONAS Dagangan Bhd) and the balancing number of duty or subsidy. No retail oil companies or dealers actually make money from the hike of the fuel prices. Oil companies pay for the products at market prices, but have to sell low, so the Government reimburses the difference -- thus subsidy.

Subsidy as a concept is OK as long as it benefits the really deserving segment of the population. But there has to be a limit to how much and how long the Government should bear and sustain subsidy. An environment where prices are kept artificially low indefinitely will not do anyone any good. That's why countries like Indonesia are more pro-active in removing subsidies. Even Vietnam (which is a socialist country, by the way) is selling fuel at market prices.

PETRONAS & TRANSPARENCY

5) I feel I also need to say something on the allegation that PETRONAS is not transparent in terms of its accounts, business transactions etc.

PETRONAS is first and foremost a company, operating under the rules and regulations of the authorities including the Registrar of Companies, and the Securities Commission and Bursa Malaysia for its listed four subsidiaries (PETRONAS Dagangan Bhd, PETRONAS Gas Bhd, MISC Bhd and KLCC Property Holdings Bhd.

PETRONAS the holding company produces annual reports which are made to whomever wants them, and are distributed to many parties and places; including to the library at the Parliament House for perusal and reading pleasure of all Yang Berhormat MPs (if they care to read). PETRONAS also makes the annual report available on its website, for those who bother to look. The accounts are duly audited.

The website also contains a lot of useful information, if people really care to find out. Although PETRONAS is not listed on Bursa Malaysia, for all intents and purposes, it could be considered a listed entity as its bonds and financial papers are traded overseas. This requires scrutiny from investors, and from rating agencies such as Standard & Poor and Moody's.

BOYCOTT PETRONAS?

6) The last time I checked, this is still a democratic country, where people are free to spend their money wherever they like.

For those who like to see more of the money that they spend go back to the local economy and benefiting their fellow Malaysians, perhaps they should consider sticking to local products or companies.

For those who like to see that the money they spend go back to foreign shareholders of the foreign companies overseas, they should continue buying foreign products.

FINAL WORD (FOR TODAY)

I'm sorry this is rather long, but I just have to convey it. I hope this would help some of you out there understand something. The oil and gas industry, apart from being very capital intensive, is also very complex and volatile. I'm learning new things almost every single day.

Appreciate if you could help to forward this response to as many contacts as possible to counter the subversive proposal out there.

Thank you.

Wilson Lee Gain Loon (CAU_MEDIARELATIONS/PETH)

Letter 2

Do what you like.

The price of gasoline at the petrol station is set by the Government, not PETRONAS. PETRONAS has done its patriotic duty by paying the dividends, royalties, corporate tax, petroleum tax etc to the Government for YOUR benefit (rakyat lah).

And bear in mind that 30% of its revenue comes from overseas operations, thus bringing in foreign exchange to the country.

OK. Assuming that you buy this idea proposed by whomever it was.

So PETRONAS will have reduced revenues. Bear in mind that the costs of operations are also increasing. So the profits are reduced. Then PETRONAS and other oil companies pay less tax.Then the Government will have less revenue. (Note: at least 40% of Government revenue for 2007 came from the oil industry). With less revenue, there will be less Government projects (you can then forget about bridges and highways, and rail tracks, and smart schools and not-so-smart universities, and hospitals, etc). So contractors and consultants, and con-sultans and con-cronies will cry and scream. Makan batu lah..

The Government has already announced freezing of recruitment. So, many new graduates will be unemployed. Makan batu lagi. Maggi mee pun tak mampu dah. Later, all sorts of allowances for civil servants will have to be withdrawn. Treasury tak cukup duit.

On top of that the oil industry may have to scale back many of its new investments, totaling about 45 billion ringgit over the next few years. Contractors, service providers, steel fabricators, maritime service providers etc will join the ratapan tangisan – no jobs.

Don’t forget that PETRONAS is sponsoring thousands of students in universities and even high schools – at any one time there are more than 4,500 university students being sponsored by PETRONAS in Malaysian universities and overseas. Also more than 2,000 high school children receive minor scholarships – children of poor families.

Kalau PERTRONAS tak ada duit, kesian lah mereka di atas tu. Shall I ask them to see the proposer of this idea (to boycott PETRONAS) and seek help from them instead?

So, it is to YOUR benefit that you make sure PETRONAS keeps making enough money to support YOUR Government so that your children can continue to go to school without paying for fees and books, and to go to universities at peanuts rates.

CONCLUSION: Help yourself and your family and your country by making sure that PETRONAS keeps making profits. Go to the nearest PETRONAS station and fill up now!! Don’t forget that if you go to non-Petronas station, the profits that these companies get will go their shareholders OVERSEAS.

So, be patriotic. Do your duty.

Go to PETRONAS!!

(I hope you guys will help to send this response to as many contacts as possible to counter this subversive proposal).

Rosti B Saruwono - Datuk Dr (VP_Edu/PETH)

Taken from http://www.karthiben.blogspot.com/

Today's news

2008-08-28T02:24:00.003+08:00

1. Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim in parliament hall.... Episode 1 on Tuesday

2. Curtains for pirated Windows... really?

3. KL flood again? ... Smart tunner suck jor meh?

Taylors sucks

2008-08-20T17:03:00.008+08:00

Everyone is talking about going to Australia. Taylors is obviously not doing a good job. Here are some of the things we're not happy with:

1. Journalism, journalism, journalism.... (Where is my Media Management major?)
2. Screwed up timetable... (Isn't a timetable suppose to keep people organized?)
3. 'Friendly' management (They make damn sure that they stay in your mind for the rest of you life)
4. Class started already? (1st class of Malaysian Studies is already the 3rd lesson?)
5. 60 students in a tutorial (Wow!!)
6. Everything is so familiar (except the title of the subject... nothing has changed)

Sigh...

What I think I want

2008-08-19T18:37:00.002+08:00

A classmate of mine told me this today. He asked me why do I make up so heavily to class. When I told this to Kar what he said was why bother what he thinks about me as I am the one who should feel how I should look. Although to many people, this might be a small matter, but to me, I have very heavy self conscious. I would go on a drastic diet just because people said I gain some weight and should loss 10 kgs. So this little comment actually bothers me more than anyone expected. I always believe in not putting any make up and go natural previously, because my mother used to said that to me, 'ugly people will do all the things in the world to look pretty'. Recently I learn how to use make up, and suppose to make me more confident about myself. After that comment today, I felt extremely low confidence. My other classmates put on makeups too, but why people wanna pick on me? I was just using eyeliner. Is that like 'too thick make up' for going to a class? How about people who use concealer? or face cream? sunblock? eye shadow? lip stick? lip gloss? bla bla bla... I don't even own some of those products. This you call too much? I don't even style my hair. All I want is just quit looking like a zombie to class. T_T Can't you just leave me alone??

A change of style

2008-08-04T18:02:00.011+08:00

My hubby Kar once told me this. He said girls who got into relationships during high school is very likely to stuck in the old shell forever. Unfortunately I fall into that category too. I always have that high school student look even up till today.

This picture was taken 5 years ago when I just graduated from Cheras High School. I remember I lost 10 kg that time, but still having the Ah Lian hairstyle and the way of dressing.

One year later I went into MBS and got into my first relationship. The stress of handling both STPM and my 'always shaky' relationship just left me no energy to look pretty. Even if I wanted to, I am still stuck with the mind set of 'LALA fashion is nice'. In short, I was a total fashion victim.

Then I graduated from form 6 and spend my first 3 month of holiday at home trying to cope with the sudden change of lifestyle. I broke off my ex-boyfriend and try to live a new life. So I decided to make myself look prettier, just to prove that I am still attractive and all.. So I handed over my hair to the stylist and TaDa... What a hair cut.. I got stuck with it for almost a month looking like my mom.

After taking the short break, I went to work in a kindergarten. I led the children's morning exercise and I kept thinking that I'd lose some weight, but what I didn't realize was I was eating 7 meals a day. I look like a crappy Ah Sam and even when I am outside the kindergarten, people called me auntie, one of them was an old lady.

After leaving the kindergarten, I was on my way to entering college, so I had to slim down. And I realize how much I miss playing with make ups. So I'd put on some for special occasions, as my make up is not a common thing to do in family (even though 6 out of 7 of my family members are females).

Still... the high school feeling of is still there.

The first month after entering college, I met the most important person i my life, my hubby. So I started to make myself look better because I wanted to send him some nice picture of me... =P

Meanwhile.. I worked in events and exhibitions. So I started to make up more often.
** Big part was because I was going to see Kar after work.. =P

But after not long.. the high school 'mui mui zhai' came back into the picture again.

I've tried many things to kick of the 'kolot' side of me.. even straighten my hair. Unfortunately I look more Ah Lian this way.

This year, I bought myself some new clothes (following the advise of my fashion consultant - Kar) so that I can look more trendy. And I've started experiment with different kinda make up method.

And after long long long long experiment... I've found the best way to kill the mui mui zhai...
FAKE EYELASHES!!!

Of course with the help of Photoshop... =)
Finally, I look like a women now... HAHAHAHA...

I'm flying without wings

2008-08-01T14:08:00.006+08:00

Exactly.. where can you fly to without wings??
NO WHERE!!!

I feel like I'm 'flying without wings' living without a car here in the city. I've never felt so dependent before. I'm restrained from going anywhere but I'm seeing him happily driving himself everywhere. Are you trying to mock me?!!! The walls around me is getting closer and closer to me. I need to get out from this concrete prison. I want to DRIVE!!! I'm gonna bored to death one day.

AHRRRRR!!!!!!!!

Taiping

2008-07-14T17:34:00.006+08:00

I went back to Taiping few weeks back. Here are some of the photos taken at the famous Taiping Lake Garden..

Hundred year old trees

Taiping Lake

Trees reaching into the lake

Clear view from Taiping Lake to Maxwell Hill (Bukit Larut)

Anything.. Whatever..

2008-06-19T03:53:00.005+08:00

Yup.. Anything and Whatever. The new concepted canned drinks originated from Singapore. I've heard people talking about it even before it was being sold in the country. So I assume it has recieved a big hit in Singapore and everyone must has been talking about it. Anything and Whatever, like any other canned beverages, contents several flavor. Anything, the carbonated soft drink features six flavor which includes cola, cola with lemon, apple, fizz up, cloudy lemon and root beer; as for Whatever, the non-carbonated drinks also features six flavor which includes ice lemon tea, peach tea, jasmine green tea, white grape tea, apple tea and chrysanthemum tea. Basically the buyer will never know what's the flavor inside until they open the can and taste it. The original idea came from the Managing Director of Out od the Box Pte Ltd, Mr Johnson Tan. According to him, the idea came to him after seeing people who couldn't make up their mind of what drinks to order, and would just simply say 'anything' or 'whatever'. From there he got the concept and eventually came out with these products. I think the idea is quite cool. I'd got myself root beer flavor and apple tea flavor ones the other day. Check out their website for more details. http://anything.com.sg/

My portrait drawings

2008-06-16T17:18:00.003+08:00

My few more attempts in drawing portraits.

I've got a present!!

2008-06-12T06:49:00.003+08:00

My hubby brought me a present today.

Hmm.. getting excited...

Wow... a cake. My favorite swiss roll chocolate cake. But wait..
It's not my birthday??!! ¬_¬

Nah.. whatever...

hmm.... nice. XD

Living away from home

2008-06-12T06:14:00.003+08:00

When I first entered college, all I wanted was to live a campus life away from home. Now that I have the chance to live outside, I realise the picture isn't really pretty at all. Everything from top to toe, in and out, are in charged by non other than me. It makes me realise that living at home is not as bad as I thought. At least when you feel like doing nothing, you can really do nothing. Laundries, groceries, sweeping, cleaning, cooking, ironing, managing the finance, and managing us.... everything, were previously done by Mom. Sigh... I'm so ashamed of myself because I not only did not appreciate her effort, I often add on work for her to do, such as leaving my dirty panties on the floor and she'll have to pick up dirty laundries from my room every morning to wash them. I now understand the frustration of dealing with all these chores I referred as 'piece of cake' previously. All the small simple thing around are actually not easy to do. Honestly, I miss home, as well as my family. I had not been able to go back home for several weeks due to the assignments on hand. I even missed celebrating the recent festival (the ba zhang festival) with my family. I've missed so many family occasions. I can now understand how my big sister, Yee Yen feels living far in the UK. I guess it's even harder for her. This experience of living away home has thought me more than I expected. Not only being able to learn to lead an independent life, I also learnt how to love and appreciate the people around me who have loved me and helped me throughout my life.

Promises from the government

2008-06-05T16:00:00.004+08:00

Responding yesterday's petrol hike, Abdullah has given the people another set of promises,

'From the savings, he said RM4bil would go to the National Food Supply Guarantee Policy, RM1.5bil for subsidising cooking oil and RM400mil to subsidise rice imports to make the price uniform in peninsular Malaysia, Sabah and Sarawak.

The Government would also spend RM200mil on flour subsidy, RM100mil on bread subsidy and RM7.5bil was meant for contributions to the subsidies for petrol, diesel and gas.'

Previous promises were 'forgoten', so we shall see what the Government will do for us. For at least, the rice price will be reduced as promised soon.

Petrol nightmare

2008-06-04T23:50:00.005+08:00

Petrol price rise again and this time, it raises from RM 1.92 litre to RM 2.70 litre, that's a hike of 40%. Price hike for electricity was also announced to be raised by 18%. It was a nightmare to everyone here in the country. As what we understood, after the so many times of petrol hike announced yearly, once the price of petrol increases, prices of everything else will increase as well. The government said the new subsidy plan is made due to the global petrol hike and it has been burdening the country. Our Prime Minister said the price hike could suppress economic growth and drive up inflation as high as 5 per cent to 6 per cent from the current 3 per cent. According to the AFP Wednesday, June 04 report, Abdullah is tyaking major political risk in removing price controls even as he attempts to recover from disastrous March elections. Commenting on the issue, Mohd Hatta Ramli from PAS said, 'We stringly feel that it is a severe misjudgement on the part of the government, in probability, there will be a protest.' The cheif economist with research firm Ratings Agency Malaysia, Yeah Kim Leng said the price increase was expected, but the 40 per cent hike was way too much. Domestic Trade Minister Shaahrir Samad said pump price could rise till 3 to 4 ringgit per litre when price controls are completely removed in August. The goevernment will be able to save up to 13.7 billion ringgit by the new measure.

5 to 6 per cent of inflation rate is very high and it is almost impossibile for the low income citizens to survive here. I wander after saving the 13.7 billion from the petrol, what will the government do to make the country better since the living condition is so bad right now. Everything we use and eat will soon be more expensive, especially to me, who stays in Sunway/ PJ area, I wander will a bowl of noodle cost me 8 to 10 bucks, since now it's already 4 to 5 bucks. Sigh.. how the hell the government expect people to live in this condition. People will rather not work than work because guess what, drive to work itself already cost you half of your monthly salary. Not to forget the electricity is soon rising price, and gas and many other necessity. Less people working will slow down the economic growth and increase crime rate. Isn't that obvious? Is the people up there sleeping or what? Expect us to listen to all their bull crap promises about developing here developing there where after so many years, the only thing we see is still standing tall is the 2 jagung standing in th middle of KL. We know all these are just to make more lubang for them to make themselves richer. All they know is just happily stting in their office goyang kaki and claim for more transportation alowences from 'our tax money'. Wait till everyone is jobless and what's going to happen. We might be heading to being the 2nd Indonesia, where their government is so rich but the people are so poor.

Natural disasters

2008-06-01T03:04:00.002+08:00

I'm sure the hottest news on earth now are the natural disasters happened in China and Myanmar. The 7.9 earthquake that struck May 12 in the Sichuan province killed 68,516 people with 19,350 people still missing. Everyone in China is lending a helping hand to the victims who are still trapped under collapsed buildings and those who had lost their houses and their love ones. The Nargis Cyclone in Myanmar however left 133,000 people dead and missing. Foreign aid was seize by the junta militants, and good news is in yesterday's newspaper reported that all relief workers' visa requests had been approved. Although given the fact that aids are slowly moving into cyclone-hit areas, they are only reaching 40% of the 2.4 million needy survivors, the United Nations says. I cried watching videos of these disasters. They makes me think that life can be so short and fragile and yet I am always complaining about my life here, living comfortably and safely. Millions of families lost their love ones and still continue holding their lives and moving on. And I... I just can't imagine if any of those unfortunate events happen on my own family and love ones.

I hope all of you that have read this post, close your eyes and pray for those who had sacrifice themselves to unite people of the world together for a better future and for the rescue teams that dedicated themselves day and night helping the victims. I salutes you. Do not give up.

Amazing human

2008-05-29T12:35:00.002+08:00

I am amaze by human's ability. I wander how much can a human do if they are working all the time. I've been working non stop for 18 hours per day and somedays even 24 continueous hours. I think if taken out the time for me to sleep, I barely have time to do other things. How nice if human don't need to sleep. Then I'll have 6 hours more in a day and 42 hours more in a week.

Tun Dr. Mahatir quits UMNO

2008-05-21T00:08:00.002+08:00

Our ex-Prime Minister left the Government party (UMNO) yesterday causing ciaos in the nation. Tun Dr. Mahatir is always a bold and outspoken political figure in Malaysia. Even after he stepped down from his post as Prime Minister and UMNO chairperson, his words and actions still does impact to the people. Since the last national election, he has been criticizing the current Prime Minister Dato' Abdullah Ahmad Badawi, asking him to step down from his Prime Minister role and quit his post in the Government party. Now that he is no longer a person in power, he have no more control on the politics in the country. You can see for yourself all the reports in the Malaysian mainstream media before and after the general elections. He was continuously bombarded by bad reports on what he said against the Government. Now he decided to quit. According to today's The Star newspaper, quiting the party is the last push to force Abdullah to step down. He is also asking the rest of his supporters to follow him. It was such a joke to see that the UMNO politicians gelabah during an interview session in the TV3 nightline few minutes ago. Sigh.. what is going to happen to this country. Seems like the whole Malaysian political scene has turn into a series of Desperate Housewife drama.

Evolution

2008-04-30T22:38:00.004+08:00

I was debating about this topic with my boyfriend Kar the other day. I always believe things evolve and adapt themselves to stay alive in this world. Those who are weak and fail to change and adapt will be eliminated and be replaced by a stronger group. Humans evolution has been the greatest among all animals, although some may still believe that God made us human and weren't an evolved version of apes, I do believe we are the descendants apes, at least there are science evidences proving that. Anyway, I just realize that the way I thought was working all along wasn't likable to many. To be specific, I just realize I can't be acting like primary or high school student anymore. I used to ask a lot of questions in class as far as I remember, since I start to know how to think. Just that now, I finally know from my classmates of mine that keep bombarding questions in the class is not a pleasing thing to do. Perhaps my high curiosity that driven me to do so, but I didn't know that many actually thought it was annoying. Kar said it would only give people the impression of I am an attention whore who are hungry of attention. My classmates said that I am stubborn and refuse to accept others opinion. Kar said so too that day. I accepted his opinion when I finally understand the topic and this evening I was defending his stand to my classmates and I got the same comment. Then I realize the topic wasn't the problem at all. Probably the problem is me. My way of saying things or my way of holding my stand. Probably it's true what he said, sometimes you'll just need to go with the flow if the majority refuse to buy your proposal. That's the way of life. The reality isn't pleasing me because it would require me to be a hypocrite. However I can still keep my principle inside, unspoken but understood by myself. I'd like to survive in this world therefore I'll need to follow the social semiotic of who I'm dealing with. Evolve and survive, being weak will be eliminate. Thanks for those who actually pay attention debating with me and being honest to me, I learned a new thing today, sincerely. For God sake, I'm a communication student. I'd take whatever it needs to be a good communicator.

I suck!!!

2008-04-18T13:41:00.004+08:00

I have been feeling really low esteem lately. Probably it's just the assignments pressure. Failing for two time before I pass my assignment is not fun. It's devastating. I need some encouragement because I am feeling worthless now. I think anyone on the street is better than me. I'm running aimlessly with time now. Not knowing where I want to go and what else can I do. Even the thing that I love the most and I felt I was doing fine isn't fine anymore. Even I have tried my My portrait drawings are getting bad to worse, my singing sucks and my attitude... killing souls. Even when I try my best, I'm still so shitty. I am found out that I no longer can say: I used to... because I can no longer do the same anymore. I don't know why I such a junk. I can't do anything extraordinarily incredible. I guess I'll need to settle with being a mediocre for life. I suck!

Unusual China Delicacy

2008-04-08T15:41:00.005+08:00

I am not trying to sabotage China in any way. Just happened that I receive all this kinda weird forwarded email from my friends. This time is about fetus eating practice in China. It wasn't a shock to know because I had heard rumors about Chinese eating fetus before this. China people basically eat everything they can think of, that's what I think, from monkeys' brains to dogs and now human fetus. I wouldn't say it's something that the people are not suppose to do, after all the fetuses came from abortions and are already dead. They use the fetuses to make herbal soup and believed that it will improve one's sexual performance. I don't think the people eating the bodies should be blame whereas the people who abort their children should stop. It's cultural differences that make us feel that eating babies are something awful but other people might think that eating chicken feet is disgusting too. After Googling it, there are more evidence s that prove the information is only an urban legend. It might or might not be happening. Anyway if it is fake, these pictures look awesomely real.

(Responding to the readers' complain comments, the pictures have been remove from this blog. Apology to all readers who felt disturbed by the pictures displayed)

China Fur Farm

2008-04-02T16:28:00.003+08:00

I've found this web site accidentally when I was checking my e-mail today and this is what I found, China Fur Farm (http://www.furisdead.com/feat/ChineseFurFarms/). It was an undercover investigation of the Swiss Animal Protection/EAST International on a China fur farm in the Hebei Province. Outsiders are banned from the killing site as the cruel act is inhumanely unacceptable. The animals are kept in wired cages before they are skeined alive. Seriously.. alive! Fur trade is happening globally, therefore it's hard to trace the origin. No actions were taken by the Chinese Government, moreover furs are exported to First World country such as the United States. The buyers have no idea where these products came from and how they are obtained. Please pass this message to as many as possible. Don't let the cruelty goes on. Stop the buying stop the killing.

Pledge to go fur-free at PETA.org

Comedy Court

2008-03-22T22:45:00.006+08:00

Check out this site guys. It's Malaysian comedian. Click on the link above and view their videos. It's gonna laugh your shoes off. This is one of the videos there.

Don't read this. You'll smack your head on the wall after that

2008-03-16T00:54:00.003+08:00

Assignments are pilling up and depriving my sleep. Ulcers and soar throat is coming back. Sigh... I'm so stress up now. So many bees and butterfly around. Ahhhh!!! I'm going mad. I hate reading, I hate writing, I hate not enough of sleep, I hate pimples, I hate soar throat, I hate being not noticeable. I just wanna hug my Tickle and Milo and sleep for 24 hours undisturbed. - _ -

I can't really think now. I think I dropped my brain somewhere. I need a heavy dose of sleeping pills. I wanna pass out and wake up when no one recognizes me. Hmm.. I wonder how will it be. I'm just wasting my time here. 'Stealing bones' don't want to do my assignment. =( My life is so sad. Once again, another stupid blog of mine.

They are bigger now

2008-03-12T17:18:00.005+08:00

Tickle and Milo has grew up a lot since the day we brought them home. Still remember how small they were when we just had them.

Tickle Milo

And now...

They are so much bigger now.

Zoo Negara

2008-03-12T01:45:00.010+08:00

After having Bubble, Tickle and Milo in the house, I suddenly have a huge interest in animals. So this day I decided to pay a visit to the national zoo. It wasn't long since the last time I went there. I went there last year when I was still working with the kindergarten, it was a day trip with the students. However, I always wanted a chance to really slowly enjoy a day visiting the zoo. It reminds me so much of my childhood.

The national zoo does not change much, just like how it was 16 years ago, just it has become much older and it no longer looks interesting or attractive anymore. I wonder how can the government leave that place undeveloped just like that. Its not like the place has nothing worth develop. The place is still fill with many animals that can actually brings lotsa tourists to the country. Why can't they promote the place a little more, fix the infrastructure inside and make it more attractive to the public. It is nothing near to the zoos in Australia and Singapore. At least the zoos over there are interesting enough to draw not only tourists, but also their locals to come visit frequently. Our national zoo can easily beat the others because the captive animals there are quite a number. It was such a disappointment to see that the maintainable and the service in the zoo is so 'budgeted'. The potential of this place to rise as a hot spot for the country's tourism is definitely greater than anyone can imagine.

Not many know about the endangered species on earth, and by this I mean updated ones. I actually got this information when my hubby was researching about Indian Star Tortoise, the popular fancy tortoise which came out to the market and sold as pets a few years ago. This specie is actually near to extinction. The Indians hunts these tortoises down, empty their shells and use them as ornament boxes. How cruel is that. Anyway, non of this kinda information is told to the public and I bet not much that knew about it. If its not because of the research, I wouldn't know too. Even the zoo did not provide such information, nor a tour guide or a zoo keeper to explain the background of the animals there.

Haa.. The king of the jungle sleeping soundly

O well.. the zoo trip was still a worthy visit although we need to run back to our car under the rain. At least it brought me away from the busy stressful city and get close to nature for a day.

The biggest lizard in the world... ON THE LEFT

Show you guys something...

2008-03-09T13:19:00.004+08:00

I drew a portrait of Daniel Day Lewis. See..

I know it doesn't look alike, but its a beginner's work anyway. =P

Simple score for piano and keyboard

2008-02-28T01:13:00.002+08:00

Check this out. Its good for beginners who wanna practice some score side-reading. Just click on the title above.

What a day

2008-02-17T23:42:00.009+08:00

I were out yesterday looking for pet shop that sell feeder rats or fancy rats ( not mice!!!) in PJ and Subang area. We were actually looking for a playmate for my pet rat Tickle. We bought her from 'Wang Wang Aquirium' in PJS 9 near to our place right before valentines day.

After we bought her only we found out that they actually need playmates of their own kind so that they can socialize among themselves. So we went all around PJ and Subang to look for pet shops that sell rats. Apparently, after so many days of seacrhing still we're unable to find a sister for Tickle. It's kinda sad that no one actually breed them anymore. Most pet shops we went don't sell rats anymore. Some even feel weird that we are asking to buy one. Malaysians are treating rats purely as food to feed carnivore raptiles like snakes and tarantula. It's so unfair because no one would feed a hamster to a snake but only mouse and rats. =( So sad. Do you know that rats are the smartest among all rodens? Not even mice can be like them. You can even train them and they can be as tame as a dog. All rats have their own character and they can even grow until as large as your palm or bigger. But its not good to leave them alone because they'll feel lonely easily. It's a heartache to see Tickle being left alone most of the time with no body playing with her, that's why we are running all the place to get a friend for her. Meanwhile, she's getting more and more firmiliar with me. She's starting to become more and more playful and dares to climb up to my palm by herself now. Not like at the begining. We think it should be her background that made her so defensive and scared. But I guess she finally gets it that we are not a threat to her and she is not going to be whatever meet eater food. We went to look for Tickle's playmate again yesterday and USJ and PJS. It was a bad luck day though. We had a flat tire in the middle of no where and had to walk to the shop to look for help (and me in high heals... sob...) because one of every tire has a safety nat that its shape differs from the usual hexagon nat. And guess what, the shops weren't open because it was a Sunday. Thank God that on our way back we bump into two polices in the housing area. They check their boot but no luck of finding the tool that we need. Then finally they called for back up. They waited there with us for about 30 minutes. So another police car came and same thing too, no luck. They drove us back to our car. I would never imagine the first time I sat on a police car will be under this condition. They were pretty helpful. Totally change my view on the polices in Malaysia. I guess there are still kind ones out there willing to help civilians in need.

Finally Kar had to call his dad and ask. - _ -'' What we were looking for was all along in the glove compartment in the car itself.

This is it. Stupid nat, or silly us. We wasted an hour looking for it. Then Kar started to change the flat tire. The sky is then against us.

Right after he took of the flat tire, the rain pour down heavily. Poor Kar, standing under the rain changing tire. Should sound sexy... but it was awful. Not after a long and dreadful day.

And finally a moving car to go home. It was pure bad luck. We didn't found a friend for Tickle. We got ourselves a flat tire and a set wet clothes, and an emo night ahead. Sigh... Tickle. When you grow up, mommy's gonna tell you this story over and over again.

Finally.... a home

2008-02-13T14:50:00.004+08:00

After 2 months moving in here to Sunway, the house is finally becomes a nice place to live in. We went to buy a new set of comforter and a set bed sheet. 'Bubble' -- my pet fish is no longer staying in the room because its causing too much of humidity in the room. He's now living out at the living room but still jumping out to kiss my finger when ever I go near. O well, 'Bubble' will get use to it. As for the room, it's really beautiful now.

Piece of cake

2008-01-28T13:03:00.000+08:00

The dramatic month is finally ending, I hope. Things are still shaky but the only thing I can do it try to put those aside and focus on the things I need to do, rather than trying to fix it. Thinking of it just make me feel so helpless. I had an emotional rollar-coaster for the past 48 hours. I'm glad the tide has fall but certainly has cause more or less emotional damage inside. Like I said, I'm just trying to ignore and forget about it, I mean the stingy part. I'm still trying to play the best role I can here. It can't be that hard. Just controlling my hot temper PMS in a few days in each month. Can't be that hard right? Just this one thing to exchange for longlast stability I guess its okay. I said before that I'll never ever change for anyone but myself anymore. I just wanna be myself. Call me a chicken, but I'm afaird to face hell again. Fighting and sacrifising for love is never a problem for me. I don't even usually call it sacrifice because I am willing to do those, not forcefully but naturally. For this time, although its against my principle, I think that's better than facing hell. I can give myself a million excuse, saying that this change will probably do good to myself too. I don't wanna inherit my mom's hot temper, neither want anyone around me to hate me because for that. Even if I am not able to do that, just hope that my efford means something.

Sunway Mentari Court Room to Let

2007-12-30T01:43:00.000+08:00

One middle room is still available. One is already taken. =) Interested can just pop me a messsage in MSN or just leave me a message in friendster or email.